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October 2nd, 2006 (10:59 pm)
melancholy

current mood: melancholy

Today is Yom Kippur, the day of Atonement. Most people probably don’t even know that I’m Jewish, not that it matters. I’m not really practicing though. My mother would probably smack me just for thinking that let alone saying it, but it’s true. Private EntryCollapse )

I’ve spent the day fasting and just sitting here aside from the short time spent at the synagogue this morning. There was no real purpose to it. I don’t feel cleansed and saved, all I feel is hungry and tired. Maybe that is the point. Maybe it’s simply to see how far a person is willing to go for something they believe in.

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September 28th, 2006 (09:23 am)
tired

current mood: tired
current song: Like the red on a rose- Alan Jackson

So my mom is coming for a visit next week, she’ll be here on Tuesday. My sister Lilly is also coming with her, since it’s her birthday on the 7th of October and my mom’s is on the 6th of October. It seemed like an easy gift, fly them out here for a few days, but I didn’t think about the fact that all of my guest rooms are empty. I mean I have one that I’m using for storage and then there’s the game room and Ziggy’s room, and Jaquinn’s room but the other two are empty. Maybe I should have just said I need to get beds for the empty rooms. I guess I’ll be going bed shopping this weekend, doesn’t that sound like a lot of fun?

I’m sure there was something else I wanted to post about, but my insomnia is back and kicking my ass. I guess I got use to actually being able to sleep and now that I can’t it’s a shock to my system or something. The whole not sleeping thing actually works better when you’re alone. There ain’t anyone to keep awake and I can be fairly annoying when I can’t sleep. I’m one of those people that doesn’t want the person I’m with to sleep if I can’t sleep. It’s selfish I know, but I don’t exactly like being up all by myself with nothing to do. And hey what’s better entertainment than the person that’s trying to sleep next to you.

I knew there was something else I was going to post about. I’m having a Halloween party. I’ve not really decided what kind yet, but anyone reading this is invited. That’s really it, now I have to go get ready for work. Another 16hr day, but at least when I leave it will be Friday which means I get the rest of Friday off.

jakeshrander_md [userpic]

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September 18th, 2006 (08:22 am)
tired

current mood: tired
current song: Making memories of us - Keith Urban

I was bored and couldn't sleep, so...Collapse )

jakeshrander_md [userpic]

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September 11th, 2006 (09:10 am)
drained

current mood: drained
current song: Cry - James Blunt

Everyone has a breaking point, a weak spot that they can‘t shake. This seems to be mine.Collapse )

jakeshrander_md [userpic]

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September 5th, 2006 (10:18 pm)
content

current mood: content
current song: The Acoustic Song - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

It’s been almost a month since I updated this thing, so I figured I should. I got my cast off today, it was a bit early and I still have to wear a brace for a few more weeks but I couldn’t handle it anymore. That damn thing itched and I had to keep remembering not to get it wet. Which really isn’t easy when you‘re trying to give a 65lb pig a bath.

I went home over the weekend to meet little Jake and yes he was named after me, and no he is not my child. His dad is one of my closest friends, we grew up together and his wife just had twins, so I went home for their baptism. It was a pretty good trip, even with the screaming babies that kept spitting up on me. I also got a chance to meet my youngest sister Lilly’s new boyfriend and then proceeded to scare the shit out of him. My mom threatened to beat my ass if I followed through with any of my threats, but little Tommy doesn’t have to know that.

It seemed kind of weird being back there, kind of like it wasn’t really home anymore. That probably had a lot to do with me wanting to hurry up and get back here. I guess that explains it, or I’m just getting old and wanting to set up roots somewhere other than where I grew up. And that sounds really stupid now that it’s written out. I know the real reason why I was in a hurry to get back here, so that’s all that really matters.

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August 10th, 2006 (08:16 am)
sore

current mood: sore
current song: Honey and the moon - Joseph Arthur

I can not wait for this week to be over. It started out good enough, but then on Tuesday it just all went to hell. I decided I needed to blow off some steam, so I went down to my gym, looking for someone to go a few rounds with. In hindsight it wasn’t a great idea, but hindsight is twenty twenty and all that. To make a long story short, he moved at the last second and my fist connected with the wall instead of him. My hand is now in a cast for the next six weeks or so, I guess it was the angle I hit him at or something. I suppose it’s as good a reason as any to finally give boxing up, at least it was my left hand, so I’m not totally screwed.

Wednesday was almost as good as Tuesday, but I managed not to break any more bones. I think three is my limit, at least it’s Thursday and the weeks almost over.

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jakeshrander_md [userpic]

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August 2nd, 2006 (09:42 am)
happy

current mood: happy
current song: Chasing cars- Snow Patrol

I‘ve fallen in love…Collapse )

jakeshrander_md [userpic]

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July 29th, 2006 (08:39 pm)
relieved

current mood: relieved
current song: Gone to Carolina - Shooter Jennings

I hate moving, it always wears me out. Even though I hired a couple of guys to move all of my stuff this time. I hated just standing around telling them were to put everything, not that I have a lot of stuff. There was only enough to fill up about half of a small truck, which is actually kind of pathetic. Everything I own doesn’t even fill up a truck. Well, that was before I sent them to go pick up my new furniture, but still it ain’t much. I guess it makes sense, because I sold just about everything I had before I moved down here.

The idea of having to move again makes me cringe, so I guess I’m sticking around here. Even though I really miss home. God do I miss it. I even miss the rundown shack of a house I use to live in with the shower that never had any hot water. And the road that my parents live on that always floods, even after it was paved. I don’t think I could go home for good now even if I wanted to, which I don’t. I may go for a weekend visit sometime soon though, just to stop me from missing it so damn much.

I guess I should stop thinking about it and finish unpacking all of my stuff.

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July 19th, 2006 (08:17 am)
hyper

current mood: hyper
current song: Make damn sure - Taking Back Sunday

Have you ever been so bored that you start counting random things? I found out I own 10 movies with Humphrey Bogart in them. Plus some other random numbers of movies, but that was the highest with the same actor. I also found some weird fish movie that I don't have any idea where it came from.

jakeshrander_md [userpic]

New house

July 12th, 2006 (08:44 am)
cranky

current mood: cranky
current song: My eyes burn - Matchbook Romance

{Private} I am so fucking confused right now, and annoyed and… I don’t understand it at all. I know everyone keeps saying it’ll take patience, but when is it just time to put everything on the line and demand a fucking answer. I’m starting to look like a fucking pansy, or worse yet a stupid love sick puppy. I’m not either one of those things, and there is no fucking way I will become either one of them. My birthdays on Monday, maybe I should…I don’t know what the fuck to do. Something needs to give, I’d take pretty much anything at this point, but something has to. {/Private}

I found a house, actually two houses. I have to decide between option 1 and option 2 . They are both fairly boring and too big for me, but I need the land. The red one has about four acres and the white one has a little over five. It’s a lot more land than I need, but it’s all that’s available right now. I could always get some more animals to fill it up with.

I'm sure most of you don't care which one I pick. Hell, most of you probably wish I'd go home. Ya'll might just get your wish, ya never know...probably not though. I am buying a house after all, so I guess ya'll are stuck with me.

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